So here is something interesting for you. I haven’t breastfed my son, Ryan, since late last October/early November, yet I still produce milk. I’m not producing anything substantial, but enough that I definitely know that it’s there. Is this normal? I know that once you have had a baby and lactated that it’s pretty easy to re-lactate, but what about continuing to lactate after you have finished breastfeeding?

On a related note, I had a breastfeeding dream the other night. I’m not sure if it was my baby or someone else’s baby that I was nursing, but I distinctly remember helping the baby latch on, cradling him in my arms, and feeling the familiar tingle and throb of my milk letting down. Yes, the dream was that vivid (as is this description!).

Sigh. I miss pregnancy. I miss breastfeeding. I miss Ryan being tiny. I wish I could go back two years and re-live his infant months all over again. I’d say I’d do Alyssa’s too, but she really wasn’t that pleasant of a baby. That sounds mean, but it’s true! She was always glaring, and never really interested in cuddling or snuggling. She was always very independent, and acted almost as if she was pissed off that she wasn’t big enough yet to go out and about on her own!

So, baby urges. I wonder if they’ll ever go away. I try to steer clear of baby photos, baby product sites, baby clothes, and items like moses baskets and crib bedding. If I don’t, the urges are just THAT much stronger. Grrr.

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